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I had gone from a size 14  to a size 2, that’s 85 lbs gone in 2.5 years. Yet I had lost so much more than just pounds: I lost decades (and possibly a generation’s worth from an epigenetic viewpoint) of unconscious weight, unprocessed traumas and toxins.  I had no intention to lose this much weight. Sure I hoped to lose some of the 40 lbs of baby weight gain (from 2 consecutive miscarriages, one stillbirth and a live birth). I had a dream weight in mind (which I surpassed by 25 pounds) but never did I hold myself to that standard.  I never tried a diet as I do not believe in them. When my herbalist asked how I lost the weight, I said “I don’t know, it just seem to melt away peacefully.”   Looking back at it, it took many life changing habits and loving myself through every transition. Although, I could write a book on all the subtle changes and positive actions, here are a few of the things I did:

  • Leave my comfort zone
  • Remove myself from judgments
  • truly play and engage with my children
  • breastfeeding
  • identify and reduce emotional, chemical, and physical toxins from my life
  • journaling
  • follow my passions
  • practice mindfulness
  • prioritize self-care
  • take responsibility for getting my own needs met
  • stop making excuses and blaming others
  • simplify my life by doing things by hand and needing less material objects
  • drink lots of water
  • get active: yoga, Zumba, walking places (instead of driving)
  • embrace vitalistic chiropratic care
  • read “Changing Habits, Changing Lives”
  • eat real, nutrient-rich food

The emotional aspects took an integral role in the weight loss and actually changing what I ate and exercising more came later. It became more about how I did things than what I actually did. It was a state of mind. It was a gradual, affirming and peaceful process. It seemed as I expanded my awareness of my negative thoughts and habits and detoxified my body/mind/soul by making conscious efforts to process the toxins in a non-judgmental and gentle way, that the weight melted away.

“Strong healthy cells are what make a body strong. How do you help create strong healthy cells? The key lies with the food you put in your mouth, the thoughts you put in your head, and the feelings you place in your heart.” -Susana Belen

When I returned to live by my home town where naturally many of the negative habits and beliefs originated, and I gained most the weight back. I look at the list above and it is easy to see why…many of the positive actions on that list have ceased. I have become obsessed not to disturb other’s peace that I have lost my own. I struggle not to judge my every move, thought, emotion and have a nagging fear that loved ones believe the worst of me. I must believe the best in me and trust that I deserve to treat myself right, no matter what. I vow to consciously revive this list with unconditional love and trust. I also ate a lot more fair-trade, organic dark chocolate 😉

As change is life’s only constant, I find embracing change a good habit to learn. I appreciate this in depth blog about the difficulties in changing habits: http://www.theemotionmachine.com/changing-habits-what-keeps-me-stuck-in-old-ways

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